NO one ever wants to hear those horrific words, but sometimes things happen in life that we don't want, are not ready for, and yet we need them to happen anyways.
Today I was FIRED from my first ever client. I am still trying to wrap my head around exactly what happened and why. I may never understand the entire picture as we so rarely do and yet here I am trying to piece together the puzzle not even knowing if I have all the pieces.
I know the first emotion I felt was anger like I wanted to defend myself and prove to my client that I know how to do my job and even though everything didn't work out exactly the way we planned that I had held up to my end of the bargain. However, that is not what I did, I swallowed my pride (which is always a tough thing to do) and I accepted failure. I looked it in the face and said okay today is the day that I take it on and embrace it. It didn't make it hurt any less it just made me able to see that I always have room for improvement in all aspects of my life.
Failure can be an amazing thing once you have had time to pick yourself up and dust yourself off and have a little self reflection. A lot of growth can occur and change can bloom. I am very hopeful these things will happen during this time of dusting myself off.
I do realize I have this very strange job and each person views the industry I am in differently, I never know what the person I am speaking with feels about people in my industry as sometimes deals go south even though an agent is working their tail off and other times people just get a bad apple. I do know that we all love when a deal works out seamlessly.
The hardest part of my job is earning a persons trust, every person gives trust differently and to figure out how to meet a clients needs just the right way and still do my job can be challenging.
So, out of my failure today I realize a few things.......
1. I can not be a people pleasing agent
2. I am the professional in this industry
3. I need to have better boundaries
4. I need to work harder to solve issues
Ironically, these things I realized have more to do with my personal life than my professional. I have noticed for most people their personal struggles always seem to rare their ugly heads at the most in opportune times. Like while on a job! YIKES!
I believe all of this realizations I had today leads back to a lack of respect I require for myself. So, moving forward I know that as an individual I need to focus more on that and less on other things. As I believe if I have my priorities in order everything else will follow.
Somethings in life are out of our control and that's just life. We don't control others, we can't control the universe, and we sure don't control God ans his plans. We can control us and how we react.
I know God has a purpose in all of this and I am moving forward trusting his plan for my life and his plan to help me grow into a better version of myself so that I can be a better agent to my clients and provide
